With the New Year beginning, I have been thinking a lot about my future. I feel so fortunate to have begun this great new job as a content creator and social media marketing assistant at a fantastic marketing company in San Diego. I really enjoy my work. My coworkers, office, and day-to-day life are very enjoyable. Yet, although I am content with my life right now, I’ve always had this inclination towards leaving and it hasn’t gone away.
Because of this, I’ve only leased my new car and I’m not saving up to buy a house or a pet, like many of my other friends, are. As of right now, my lifestyle is temporary.
DO NOT GET ME WRONG.
I am very happy with my family, friends, and work right now. But, for whatever reason, at this point in my life, I’m still looking to leave. I think I just know that this isn’t where I’m meant to be.
I plan on working at this company for a few years to develop my skills and learn as much as I can about this industry, as well to be as helpful as I can to the company that I am so loyal to. I will continue doing stand up weekly, taking improv classes, and studying languages, and doing the things I need to do to be happy and work towards my “end goal.” I’m going to spend as much time with my family and friends as I can, specifically developing my relationship with my younger cousins and new friends.
Yet, after those few years are up, I want to take off. Yes, I believe this time it will be harder, since I actually have a life here and people who I will be sorry to not see every day. And even though I’ve left home dozens of times, I know the next time will be a lot harder. I have a life here now.
Yes, technically, I always have. But never have I ever had to leave dozens of cherished friends. Never have I had to leave a grieving family or my dog who’s getting old in age or my cousins who are going into an important part of their life. And although I will absolutely miss them and will be back as much as I can, I have to go. For me.
It’s what I’ve got to do. I’ve got to live in a big, bustling city, with an impressive media industry and opportunities to grow in ways that I just can’t do here in the outskirts of San Diego, as beautiful as it may be.
Right now I’m leaning towards moving to London for many reasons. For starters, I’ve been there many times before and feel like I have a good take on the city and what life would be like living there. The public transportation can get you pretty much anywhere in the city, you can order literally any type of food at any time of the day, and the famous London entertainment is never more than a few blocks away.
It’s also a great choice for me since it’s a European city but still is English-speaking, although I imagine I will have opportunities to speak other languages there since there are said to be more than 300 languages spoken in the British capital.
I’ll have easy access to Ireland and Scotland (some of my favorite countries) as well as Wales, a place I’ve been simply dying to visit. I could take the EuroStar to Paris for less than $100 round trip or a RyanAir flight to Copenhagen for $50. Mainland Europe or Iceland is never too far away, especially compared to sunny California.
I also have very good friends who live in the U.K. My best friend from Egypt, who is one of my dearest friends, is from Oxford and is currently studying Arabic at the University of Edinburgh. I have a few other friends studying at that school with her and others living in Brighton. I know a lovely couple in London who is very active in charitable work and the Shakespear Globe Theatre. (Side note: I’ve always been tempted to try acting at the Globe…)
Also, my best friend is seriously considering moving to London around the same time as well, and she’s “home” to me too. I think that will make the transition of moving a little easier. But I know that the most important thing in drawing me to London is the media industry.
There are hundreds of theatres in London and numerous places to do stand-up. While still working a typical day job and making the necessary living-wage income, I can re-enter the acting community and work on finding an agent, auditions, and gigs.
That’s what I want to do with my life and London is a better option for me than New York or Los Angeles. It’s sort of like a big fish in a small pond versus a small fish in a big pond dilemma.
I know it will be hard. Even though I’ve been traveling most of my life and have spent most of the past four years abroad, I’ve never actually moved anywhere, with no intention of coming back for a very long time. But I can’t live my whole life worried about taking that final leap. My gut is telling me that this is what I’m supposed to do. I’m not going to ignore.